I Feel Like Dying

I'm sitting here asking myself why Why is it that I want to die I hate my life and what I am So I'm just thinking to myself how do I get out of this jam I try to have faith But my life is moving at a slow pace I'm hoping I can gain some patience Because I need some time to adapt to these changes  Yet I try to remain gracious Even though I really can't take this  Constant feeling of despair And the sudden urge to shed a tear I'm really in search of that true friend Who gets me and I get them Does that person even exist Or am I just making a false wish Yes I still feel like dying But no I'm not trying